JOHN DIGWEED in Bombay IN November....plzzzzzzzzz i need a pass for it

I feel like i am losin my sanity... I like a guy who used to be like a little devil, he was bad and now he has a girlfriend who is christian and she is helpin him.. we had a weird chemistry, we still do but now its worse bc we kinda ignore each other but i like him. another thing im older he is i think 21 or 22 im gonna be 27 next month.. i started asking this.. kinda witch person and i did a triangle writing things and lit a blue candle til the candle blew out, she told me that would so affect in 33 days, the 33 days has not yet come the 26 may will b 33 days. I need God but this feelin of weirdness i dont know what to do. shoukld i burn the paper before or after the 33 days, why did God allow him to play with me or..im just confused please help